A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new.

Itz been a long time i din "emo" =(

2011-03-27T08:43:00.000-07:00

知人知面又知心, 古人说这就是所谓的知音.

The ONE who knows u, feels u, and understands u... itz called bosom friend.

这趟回来很期待很开心, 但是没预期中的快乐.

What I've waited for so long, it doesn't met my expectation.

心中有太多的疑惑, 烦恼, 担心和无数的问号.

Uncertainty, Worried, Vexed, and Questions.

所知的朋友变了, 还是我变了?

Changes. Me? or they did?

我想...........................

.............都变了

Everyone changes.

最美好的回憶

2010-08-31T12:26:00.001-07:00

啊哈...有好幾天沒寫布嚕格了~

都是因為回hometown的關係...太"忙"了 :D

回去實在太放鬆了... 依然有很多好朋友在我身旁 =)

有喝酒...有瘋狂的玩...也有打game kaki O_O

有時這些就是 即將會變成回憶的時刻

所以我都會好好珍惜...

說到回憶... 一直以來永遠不會揮去的回憶就是我的童年時代遊戲

吞食天地 =)

很多人都不知道這遊戲...因為在m'sia 這算蠻冷門的 2.5D 線上遊戲...

我啊...可是拼了命在玩這吞食 O_O

從form 1 就已經是這遊戲的 "達人" 了 xD

也就因為這樣我有了第一個女朋友

陪我度過吞食1 的日子... 實在是無法形容的幸福 =D

也就因為這樣我有了一班 "拜我" 的吞食迷...

哈哈...我也不知我會玩得那麼瘋.

也許這是我人生中的第一個接觸最久的線上遊戲吧 =)

嘿嘿...說到ah goh, 有哪位不認識啊 O_O~~~啊哈哈~ 自誇*

也就因為這樣... 我的人生接著就有第二個女朋友

但吞食從來都沒有離我身過

一直以來我都扮演這吞食宅男的角色...

有時忽略了朋友或家人或是女朋友... 都覺得很抱歉 =(

但...有些事情是真的很難離手的...

jacky1o6o... 啊哈我竟然用這名字找到以前被洗掉的回憶...

都怪我自己不會format 學人亂format ~.~

回憶啊...竟然被我找到了

那我就有義務把你post上來 =)

我最喜愛的練功法師ID... jacky1o6o!! 哈哈~

即使有朝一日我GG了...這些照片仍然存在我的 ...布嚕格

雖然有點老掉牙的感覺...不過當我不開心的時候

......這些都是我的 笑容來源 =)

我覺得。。。我最強也同時最弱的 ID

傳說中的能屈能伸的火霸....小t

這... 是我最愛的水系法師...... 小k

其實這只...是我一個朋友的名字

原名 : keele

朋友名 : 志雄

哈哈~ 怎麼也想不到他是我裡面最強的1只~~

可惜...非常可惜... 我為了某某事情

把我辛辛苦苦的5年修來的命根...

...賣了

但...這依然是我最美的回憶

沒人能取代, 也無法再回去了.

我會永遠記住這段 最美好的回憶....

sarang hae yo...작은 마 ..작은 케이...~

-你們的主人上 jacky1o6o.

i luvb tis~~~~

2010-08-24T09:40:00.000-07:00

tis is wad i wan... ahahaaa

veli cute larh tis 2 couple =)

once i gt tink to b lidat... bt tinks chg fast

so... single is better nw ><~

笑素偶~~~ xD

2010-08-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

天丫...今天真是笑破肚皮 >3<~

在電梯遇到了超異形的人 xD~

...還吃飽飽的說囧

在加上朋友的msn.....

...今天真是笑素人啦 xD~~

真是第一個被 emoticon 騙到的朋友 xP

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ms. suiluibao... who ask u gv me check dou u wrote me in blog..hahaa :P

soli ah, i 做人要誠實 oso... u're d 1st kena tis bug emoticon tipu 1 !!~~

nw veli full ah, reali feel sakit perut when see tiok tis pic ><~

u reali .......天真 xD!!

tired / 3 \

2010-08-22T11:54:00.001-07:00

old dy... play awhile badminton den sini sakit sana sakit...

LOL~ 21st oso hvnt reach oredi old jor =P

ytd went to EA curve..

ahaa, nt bad~~ many lenglui~~ wif beasts awww =X

bt itz a high expenses yamcha... ewwwww~~

pics of F4... xD

不錯的一部戲 =)

2010-08-21T11:01:00.000-07:00

《王力宏- 你不知道的事》

是個蠻不錯的一部戲 ^o^ v

只是今天跟朋友去看...

.....遲了半小時囧~~~

是不錯啦, 不過劉亦菲穿古裝比較好看 =X

其實平凡也是很美麗的...難道現在的女生都喜歡 ____?

問自己...後悔嗎？

2010-08-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

朋友B問...

"你們...都刪除掉以前前男/女友的照片嗎？

呃...朋友A說,

"刪啊！！完全不想想起他 ( \ . / ) 凸"

朋友B 就說...

"我完全不想看到她留言在我的fb啊!! v ( O _ O ||) v"

我就說....

"笨蛋, 那些是回憶丫...刪來幹嘛？"

其實這些話..都不知是來自內心還是啥

不過很肯定的是...

........不後悔

畢竟在一起的時候...我都是100% 真心付出

也沒騙過也沒小氣過

對得起自己良心就可以了...

雖然不知對方是真心或否

....這也是位君子作風吧？ ahaa =)

p/s : 今天...我對有些在背後說人壞話的"人" 有點失望.

這...是誰的部落格啊？ O_o?

2010-08-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

這...是誰的部落格啊？ O_O?

超醜的咯~~啊哈哈

其實是沒心思去佈置到美美那種....

每次弄到一半就沒mood了囧

也很久沒上來update一下東西

看到好像死blog醬 xD

不是不上來寫...是有時寫了有人看麽 O.o?

我還有東西寫麼 o.O?

心中有話而說不出...唉~~~

最近身心真的很虛弱...覺得自己什麼都一事無成

...沒推動力...沒能力辦事

又給幾隻啊雞啊狗 boom 幾下...力都沒有

...plug都燒

.........心也有點痛一下

不過, 這些只是開玩笑..我非常清楚

天秤座嘛~~ 最怕就是被人講成真了

事先問自己... = = 我...

.......真的有那麼醜嗎？囧

除了sien 還是 sienz~~~

2010-03-14T11:01:00.000-07:00

haihh...wad a boring sem i had tis year - -

lecture duno teach wad...

tutorial duno learn wad...

even eat oso duno wan eat wad.. GG

so boring mia life nid to extend till 2012 = =?

i hope i wont bcum mad if everyday like tis.. / . \

....so lucky i still hv frens around

sien sien day~

2010-03-07T10:41:00.000-08:00

reali sienz 2day...

coz broke ady...ha

better jz stay at home n learn new songs =3

but learn so much for wht geh?

ka ki play ka ki song...

no listener at all...haizz

2day is d most sienz day in tis week..

arghhhhhhh s2p sunday oOo

還未到達時請剎車

2010-03-06T23:34:00.000-08:00

已經有幾天沒update自己的爛部落格了 O_o

每天都往外跑...都窮死了

不是看戲~就是唱k

不然就是買東西...唉

前幾天的HP800耳機壞了

可惡~~!! 才用不到半年= =...

有1年warranty但是我卻弄不見那張單 o__Q

結果還是跑去lowyat買回它...

這次要小心點的用了 =3

昨天去了朋友的生日會... (其實只是個晚餐)

哇啊啊啊啊啊好貴啊

好久沒試過這種feel了 @_@

the apartment...LOL 不錯

但是就是貴了些 - -絕對不是我能去的地方

希望5年后的我不把這些費用放在眼里...

...我要做個有錢人!

至 : 愛玩的朋友們

我知道 .......

出門很好玩

被人照相是個很驕傲的感覺

去clubbing很放松認識多朋友

我也知道 .......

這只是種娛樂

我也會去做這些事

但是，

千萬別沉迷......

.......請剎車吧.

deep inside..who noes?

2010-03-04T08:48:00.000-08:00

everyone hv their own secrets...

and so as myself too.

others maybe saw i'm damn happy n fun

actually who noes i'm sad covered by my fun?

"我又不脆弱何況那算什么傷？

..............反正愛情不都是這樣"

在一起時說的多好聽

相愛時說的多甜蜜

........為何分手時說的多難聽？

funny monopoly =3

2010-03-01T08:59:00.000-08:00

2day damn tired for attending d CCNA lab practical for 3 hours!!
omg.....

i cant even wake up as usual.. (at 3pm) LOL

sipeh tired...feel like dunwan to go...

but cant,

i promised tis sem hv to pass all~~~

arbo i hv to eat myself up ler >"<~

LOL...2day the funniest tink in my life is...

MONOPOLY in mobile!! LOL

itz totally fun if u play it multiplayer'ly wif frenzzz..kakakaa~ > M <

both of us jz wait for the "chances" and "fates" step

coz we set up no money received even cross over tht "GO!"

means we hv fewer...n fewer lots can b bought o__Q

so...in conclusion~~~

life's a monopoly.

life depends on chance and fate.

.......and also your own destiny.

damn monopoly...make me laughed :D

exercise day

2010-02-28T08:21:00.000-08:00

lol..i wake up wif fifteen of sit-up..
n brush my teeth twice in d morning..LOL (i'm blurred i tot i hvnt brush yet)
itz 2pm .. ahaa, damn slpy 2day

after doing my programming homework...we went to a swim wif my housemate =)
OOPS, itz da 1st time i ever write d programming codes myself.

yippie~~~ itz a success @.@

mayb it jz an easy prac...LOL

2day jz passby normally...

no sms'es

no yamchas'

no lazyness occurs'

and no pangsai ...........SHIT

arghhhhh wad happen to my stomach >"< ?

plz shit laarr...k? LOL

nice song training wif fren (yc) =3

fun life, life's fun

2010-02-27T10:38:00.000-08:00

life's a fun when u hv a bunch of monkeys around..
i mean, true frens =3 aint animals..
i nvr thought tht in KL, i can still met some can "play" mia frens..
they can b played, and oso can play ppl LOL
tis is wad i wan... FRIENDS!!

ytd nite lost a snooker game to a sozai...
ishhh, so unwillingly to lose.
coz whenever i won, he'll show his black face to me~ ahahaha CUTE!!
tis fren reali sozai 1, everytime lose liao den say here rosak thr rosak...
ppl play snooker use cue tip, he lose liao say cue mia btm rosak..LOL
funny frenz ever... i sure will win u 1 day GAO GAO!!

tiring arrrhhh.. jz nw went to paint my fren's coming soon mia music studio
wtf, paint like shit lah. inside my nose oso tht paint mia colour = . = black sumore!
another fren who help 1 oso kena GG..kaka
even hw hard it is... 送佛送到西... help him to finish it even it cost my energy =3=
jz hope tml my nose wont b black colour anymore....

p/s : even nose dung oso black colour... eakkksss!!!

hahaha, jz nw open my fb saw my fren's post.

"Pussy Jackson and the Lying Thief"

lol~~~~ funny funny funnyyyy!! hahaa!!
recently facebook reali many kinds of sohai posts..
tht makes my day happier =3

a smile per day keeps bad mood away =3

wad do i reali want?

2010-02-26T11:42:00.000-08:00

2day woke up...same, brush teeth...eat breakfast...
jz like b4, so dull.
but at least got some frens acc me 2day..
i felt warmed =3
at nite, i cooked a meal for us.
it jz make me feel... wad i done for d past for my ex

hahaa...is tis normal or am i weird?
coz i nvr cook so much dine b4 for anyone....
but den my fren msn'ed me n hv a chat..

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me : i jz felt wan to cry when u lean on my shoulder...
fren : y?
me : coz i tink of my past...
fren : lol~ i tot u can cope over tis kind of tinks 1~ (sumtink lidat lah)

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i duno, i reali duno.
coz i jz automatically will tink of tht...who noes?
after tht my fren told me itz normal at d start..
soon, will bcum less n lesser feelings for d past..
reali? i hope i can forget it too...
since i'm nth / nil for her too =(

hwee chien : go find a new gf laa~

me : no ppl wan me jek.

reali lar, a guy will like a gal by her appearance at 1st.

n so, gal will like a guy by his appearance too...eg. car, look, money...etc

but i noe, i noe still gt gals see feeling d...like u said~

but itz rare dy =X ( i noe u are ~)

tht's y i realize tht money~~ itz damn important.

u hv money, u will hv looks, n u will hv almost everytink. trust me

or mayb i jz look dwn at myself baa..hahaa

tiring day...y?

2010-02-25T11:12:00.000-08:00

damn tired for d whole today...
bcoz slp 2 much...haha =3
skipped two classes...am i geng?
haisehhh...tht darn alarm jz wont wakes me up
even my roommate oso bo call me up 100%... LOL

p/s : i'm dam hard to b awakened =3

eee...sien sien at home playing dota
play jor wna vomit sumore.. swear wont play so many games straight -.-

2day classmate came to "sleep" wif me LOL
yeap, he's my bf @@~ dear yc~~ hahaa~
yc~ i'm coming~~ muacchhh muachhhh~~

actually wad is gal? i duno...

lousy moral class...

2010-02-23T10:37:00.000-08:00

eaksss, 2day attended a damn lousy moral class... >"<
waste time, waste energy...but still, itz a part of coursework...
arghhhhhh gila mia lullaby ... la li hoo~~ lali ho~~~LOL << plz watch 瀨戶之花嫁 den u'll noe wad it means =)

after went for a short gambling at frens metro house..
LOL, fxxk laa... lost rm 10 ...sibeh pekcek...
but nt pekcek for tht rm 10.. is d song tht d banker keep play
BAD ROMANCE !!!
cb = =... play 3hours + non-stop keep repeating...wan puke ady =.=
tis yr reali cant gamble laa...逢賭必輸 = = oOo

enjoy listening to mayday's song =)

KL 1st two days...

2010-02-22T11:13:00.000-08:00

errr...sienz + sienz = super sienzz..... !!!
duno y, i felt JB is da place whr i live as myself..
although i hv frens here, but....
i hv more in JB along wif my dear + lovely parents >"<~
1st time in my life,
1st time i had tis kind of mood. LOL

once, gt a gal told me tht frens are more important~
but sometimes, couples are more important n more than tht.
hmm...no doubt, itz my X actually
wad da worry? she wont b watching tis anyway~ mwahahaa
she totally forgot bout me dy, n jz like those fairy tales... living happily n ever after nw
so~ i oso shud lead my own life liao... =) wishing is better than cursing, so~ wish them hv a nice relationship ~~ oOo ^___^ oOo <<< i ain't angry lol

but i reali cant put down my frens in JB..
some of them reali charm....
nt charming, is "cham"....
i hope tht i could lead them happy but i cant coz i'm in dam shit KL = =~!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhh studies !!! 1 more year!! >tml still hv to attend moral classes......
wad da fuk moral class = =.. i dun hv moral ka? still nid attend..
although i admit i'm dunhv 100% moral laa :X

before i stepped into college...i asked myself,
WHY i have to study? why others went work n some getting married..
and i'm still studying, still single, still available...LOL
but nw i realized...study, not only for d certificates.
it talks about life. experience of life.
widen ur sight to see d world... ahaa
looks like i'm an old man =X

so...whtz next of my life?

回到KL的日子.

2010-02-21T09:29:00.000-08:00

是開心？還是傷心？怎么一踏進這領土就有莫名的悲傷感？
難道這是壓力？還是我一直在逃避？
不知道...也不確定...wht shud i do nw?
從JB回來的感覺真是不一樣...

END of holidays...

2010-02-20T22:52:00.000-08:00

finally i have to get bek to KL again... haizzz
everytime oso hv tis feeling...dunwan go bek d feeling LOL
but bek KL oso ok geh..gt penang frens... o_O~
at JB have all ex-classmates n schoolmates..
all of them mostly went to work...
gt some study oso...so every year, frens are getting lesser n lesser..
other than tht, tis year's CNY reali 冷冷清清 O__Q

anyway, i'm still enjoying wif bunch of monkeys~~ =3
the most funny tink is 1 of my frens went GG'ed by drinking too much liquors -.-...
jia hao arr, duno drink den dun drink laaa... puke on my face pulak oO0 no nx time oOo
neway, itz rite to hv some situation like tis...if no ppl drunk, errr... ITZ tht CLUBBING？ lol

last nite went to find my ex-schoolmate, she chg''ed soooo much
she had to live by her own..working, staying alone. T___T
pity on her... i hope tht after i graduated wont b staying alone >"<
so..tis is end of my holidays~
full of chiong~k, bai nian, pusing-pusing, yamcha n choy shui =D

KL, i'm bek!!!!

non-stop stories around me~

2010-02-19T12:02:00.000-08:00

itz been a week in jb... alotz of tink i saw at here~~
got quarrel gt fighting gt crying gt playing gt drinking gt gt gt...ha mi lan dou got LOL
actually itz same in KL too...like before
crazy in luv~~
but cant b blamed...coz LOVE IS BLIND wakakaka~

ytd hv a nice gathering wif ex-classmates...
tht's fun @@... at least reduced my stress in KL~
i luv u guys muah muah muahhh~~~ >3<
no doubt, 2day went out too for whole day...

hmm...but gt a fren told me tht her dad was admitted to hospital...
pity on her dad... i hope he will b fine and so as her oso... O___Q
hey~ hui yi~ dun worry...everytink is gonna b okay~~
bless ur dad, TRINGGGG~~~ =3

又是chiong k....but i love it :)

2010-02-17T13:15:00.000-08:00

今天又跑去chiong k...哈哈
頭1次 2個人包完redbox最大間的包廂... (WTF!!!)
2個電視機 4個大沙發...真的一邊唱歌一邊跑來跑去哈哈 >"<
不過真的唱的很快樂謝謝你們. 減輕我不少憂郁...
天啊...兩天在jb就花了半個月的伙食... (正常嗎？)
希望明天不會再去wet ="=...

說到wet...今天很興致勃勃的去了cabana (jb的某某間pub)
哇老......哇靠....哇溜.... 人家去那邊喝酒喝到吐
我去那邊做么？哈哈哈哈～～～跟個好朋友吃炒飯吃到吐 ! oOo
說起來也很搞笑...去pub吃飯 LOL~
其實心里很想去瘋...但一直浮現那個"她" 去pub的情形.
"是真的這樣的嗎？“ ”pub就是這樣的嗎？" “她也是一樣這樣的嗎？"

................我是瘋了嗎？ haizzz...
pub根本就不適合我的地方...可能是我沒那個心情吧
抱歉啊, 朋友們...等我愈合了再陪你們瘋...sry sry sry sry~
在pub可以看到各式各樣的人...有帥的有高的有壯的有錢的
有seh的 (勢力) , 有妞的, 有geng的, 當然也有丑的啦... 林伯就是啦我就是在講我.
想著想著...一切都是 "錢" 的問題.

如果有錢, 我怕沒妞嗎？
如果有錢, 我怕沒樣子嗎？ (整形也在所不惜)
如果有錢, 我怕吃不壯嗎？
真的有錢, 我的勢力不會比人家低嗎？

所以我下定決心要努力賺錢...
不是做給人家看, 不是為了炫耀或名氣
我只是要...不輸一個男人. (那個男人...就是個男人 LOL) 講了會...自己拿來suey...
本來我沒任何目標...現在我有了
而就是超越你這個"男人" ! 在短短兩年之內我會用盡我120%的力去超越你!

I CHALLENGE U !!

你不是真正的快樂

2010-02-16T11:29:00.000-08:00

突然有些心情想寫部落格...多虧一些朋友, 讓我從新有心情了起來...
謝謝你們, 雖然我嘴上不說但其實你們都是我最愛的兄弟姐妹們～

已經超久沒寫部落格了...都是因為在JB的電腦慢...寫了也沒好朋友看...
好像寫來自己爽的 LOL 感覺好像白癡... 到底部落格是蝦米? 自己爽自己high? = " =?
突然有個朋友鼓勵我寫部落格...所以心血來潮寫寫也無妨~

其實這幾個月來心情根本都沒好過
最多只是敷衍一下自己的內心低...以笑遮淚
真正的心事有多少人知道? 真正我心里想說的話又有誰會聽到?
今天跟朋友們去唱k...感覺舒服很多很多
心里總是會想著 : 怎么這些歌詞都好像在形容我自己？ WTF...
"愛人的話不需要重" <<< ?
"為什么我全沒辦法長x直入你的心" << ? ps, 不會發音 LOL

真是...very speechless...無言
我所做過的一切好像云煙一吹hami都 bo liao...
難道我的人生就必經這條soham路?

continued.

2009-12-27T07:38:00.000-08:00

關于朋友的blog...遲點再寫~
現在不是很有心情...唉被某某人破壞了

看到了同班的blog...有點小同意的咯~

2009-12-27T07:20:00.000-08:00

haishh... after finish unplugged competition, reali nth to do...

jz keep finding houses~ lol, finally found 1 unit..

metroview..haha, alotz of frens there..

X'mas? lol...i made it veli funny...:X

my frens and i went to "look-up point"

where it'z oso called d small genting ..@@

y funny? coz we were lost at least 5 times hahaa~

we went jor holland~ mai zhu zai~ LOL

hope nx X'mas oso can play wif them :D~ happy christmas!!

我只是個小角色...i'm jz a small character..

2009-12-14T10:51:00.000-08:00

wow...finally i hv passed my days...wif full of joys :D
WE WON~~!! unplugged competition...haha~

i'm so happy wif tis...cant stop tinking about it...

maybe tis is d 1st time i get a champion? lol...

tink of it...i reali d 1st time get champion in TARC...@@

thx ya my dear god...my hope granted :X

duno hw to say alr...cant express my feeling o.O

jz a thousand of thx to all my supporters...

n also, "DOWN 2 EARTH" !!!

i luv u all, honestly.

sozai performance..

2009-12-02T10:56:00.000-08:00

err...2day d unplugged performance..
haishh, duno wan say bad or good. can say nt bad nor good oso = ="
when i look at myself in d video, i looks 100% like sohai ><...
shit laa...no contribution at all in tis band...sei for...haishh
i dunwan buang muka in front of ppl leh ><..........................................hope can play drum :X

overall i like it laa...coz so damn many classmates come n support me
i felt touched n abit paiseh...coz playing those 2 dumb instrument ><...
but tht 2 instrument...say hard nt hard, say easy...impossible is easy @@~
by d way, thx for all my frens support ^3^ i luv u all muackz

2nite played CS n Left4D wif classmates...
mwahahhaa, d one says : "i let u 1 hand lahh, come CS la oOo~"
lose jor :D~ but he say pc problem, duno izit real bo ...haha
wait u laa~~ "lu ho liao lu lai laaa!!" @@
summore ate jor nasi goreng kambing...lolz...until nw cant slp
siao liao laaaaaa~~~~anyway, still gt someone acc me chat. i felt nice ^^ thx for d kambing~~~ mekkkk~~~

Interesting LIFE ever in KL...

2009-12-01T10:10:00.000-08:00

itz a long time i nvr touch blogspot dy...
haha, all of bcoz the power of FACEBOOK!! @@...nearly half day can stay in front of d monitor
yet, blog is only d way we can express deeper of our mood~ lol

talk bout last month... we had our presentation on "short stories" subject
lol, Ah Bah's money title it is. how SHIT d tutor is..
ppl performing den dun chit-chat sms lah, late liao still wan tiu us oOo curse u bo bf
but overall is ok laa~ at least our gambling show smooth ^3^ thx liang kor~ lu manyak geng aa~

after tht...i tink is whole class go watch 2012 d time ler...
2012 !!
crazy movie ever..more kam jiong than titanic tim @@ nice !!~
thx fb : nicholas ho jian xin for his enthusiastic to "jor" ppl go watch XD~
as i noe when he jor ppl sure nobody go 1... lol
nic a, u shud thx me :p ngekngek

after tht...i'm so busy wif my tutor fren. Mr. Eric~
he's launching his own music studio, soon.
but his pre-launching party failed :[
pity on him... no management, no arrangement, no band performance, no helpers....and no salary.
mwahahaa...if he pay me for whole day, i'll try my 200% best to make it hot :P

after tht party oso sipeh tired...but managed to battle d war of "Half-Life"!! hahaa
the story is started like tis... a guy called boss, he said "I'm pro, no ppl can beat me in HL, i'm level 2 in battle.net...wan kill lai lar, scare mea?" lol...

another guy called yue said : "i'm god of HL..whole city cant beat me nia, lu ho liao lu lai lahh!!"
and i said : "i'm king of HL in my kampung...veli less ppl can beat me, come on lahh!!"
den tis 3 guy went war...haha~~~~~ like children nia, but in d end i lost :[

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it's 2:22 AM ady...lol i'm still typing, sipeh excited to express out my days...full of fun, meaningful.
after battle of HL, itz ho jian xin, nick's time @@!
he scare ghost nia...ask us go pui him at his house.. :P (sry nic, i said out jor) mwahahaa
at last i hv a nice bed wif nick, wonderful body he had :X

d day after tis...almost spending money's time liao..
half of d class went for a buffet~ at Melaka Laksa Lok Lok, Plaza Prima G.Floor...@@
RM23 spent...full of joy o.O"
ALL PLEASE GO AT LEAST 1 TIME ! coz their service damn good.
why? coz we ordered for 2 glasses of ice, in 1 sec! they replied us wif d ices @@

haishh, itz time for UNPLUGGED competition...
tml i hv to perform in canteen 2 tim... abit paiseh - - coz using 2 small instrument oni
no contribute at all :[ but tis band, damn nice. i have a nice vocalist, guitarist n a pianist.
ALL sipeh geng 1...oni i nub T_T god aaa...y i so nub har? :X

hope someone will come support me laa...especially someone :X

PASSED.

2009-10-22T10:46:00.000-07:00

yeahh~~ i managed to get pass all in all subs...:D
so scared 1 of my subject fail...tht's d NC, network communication.
siao ehh..tht sub, langsung tak faham 1...luckily no nid resit :p

so long time din update blog alr...abit lazy n no time
coz everyday play~~~ pool~~ slp~~~
trying to forget sumtink..hahaa~but actually quite hard to made it.
i oways felt abit unfair to myself..izit bcoz i'm too xin ruan?
haizz...who noes...oni i noe about myself..

last nite played snooker wif my classmates..
AH DUI. so damn hard to play lah. d table so big...
d pole so small yet d rules oso damn many.
smoky too..quite dislike smoky area..

after tht went to steven corner eat yeh~~ mwahaha~
NASI GORENG KAMBING, nice arr
who hvnt try go try 1 piring lahh. sure nice :D confirm

thursday aaa...tired aaaa..my netbeans class...swt
langsung tak faham wad d fuk lect teaching = =""
i nid someone's help oredi~~ arbo tis sem cgpa sure drop < 2.8
tml 8 am class sumore...haizzz..nw still cant slp
can anyone sms me to force me slp? T_T..

happy and sad 20th birthday

2009-10-13T01:55:00.000-07:00

我只能永遠讀著對白~ 讀著我給你的傷害~(sms'es ringtone)

phone rangs... n many of wishes came in my inbox...
following up wif my best fren, junwei from sg.. ^o^
he called me n ask me to open my gate door immediately...
he told me tht my other fren was at outside along wif a b'day gift..
haha, once i open d door, i tot he hiding behind my housemate's car.

coz i saw a shadow :D
rupa-rupanya..itz a black cat = ="" stunned, funny
at last he came out jor..along wif a b'day cake haha

WTF!! my cousin oso came here to celebrate wif me =O~
i oso duno he came here alone from sg... geng arr~ nvr came here b4 oso dare come..
TBR veli dangerous arr i tell u all...better stay away from here =X

i'm stunned coz my cousin came find me..he is my 生死之交 hahaa, same wif tht 1 in sg...n many more in jhr...
we went to tbr celebrate :D ...weird rite?
coz i'm nt in mood...sometink haunted me for a long time...bt nt ghost la..leave it 1st

we went pool in tbr..haha, nt swimming pool lar~ is a mini snooker table
i reali hv a fun in thr..1st time i'm so happy wif my b'day...
played until midnite lol~ nearly 5am.
normally b'day sure go out play...clubbing..or eat sumtink nice..
but i'm nt reali in mood to hav these...everyone oso noe bout tht, but someone duno.

lol... looks like back to the before again...
coz last 2 nite oso slept wif my cousin...
eeeeeeeee ~~ haha... rite? but for me, i oredi used to sleep wif him
from age 1 i oredi like a sworn brother wif him jor...so he jz looks like my own bro

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at nite, we hv my b'day cake...hahaa, fruits~!! i like it =3
but i forgot to grab pics from them...jz keep eating oni...
i tink i'll try to take from them n post it haha :D

actually tht cake i was supposed to cut a piece to "her"..
but my cousin separate it to 10 shares oredi...
tht's ngamngam enuf for 10 people there.. haizzzz
i tot i can bring her my cake, but chamm laa...forgot to tell him cut 11 shares.

haizz....y unhappy? tis story start from tis...
i send her for d 1st msg...asking her izit ate oredi...or free le bo..
but at last i knew thr's no more cake left, tht's y i replied nth oredi..
n she treat me damn cold.

izit my b'day today? i'm asking myself.
my mood suddenly so dwn...coz i'm facing these cold reply since d day we break
until my b'day, i oso received tis kind of msg... izit fair to me?
NO, it is nt fun at all...

my mood spoiled..after tht i dunhv any mood to play alr...
who's fault? my fault? coz i sms'ed to her? to eat a cake? but nth left?
i'm hv no intention to tahan alr...i directly scold wadever i can..
it oredi overpass'ed beyond my limits.. i CANT BEAR wif it anymore.

FUCK u. DAMN u. STFU oOo!
i nvr treat a gal lidat tht "good", i dare said i treat u "good" coz it oredi surpass any ppl i treat tht gd. I CAN SWEAR oOo nabeh.
i was treated like shit. bullshit catshit or wadever shit.

all ones who read my blogs...maybe u'll say i 小氣 or 大男人 or wadever shit..
I ASK U ALL LAH.

你可以忍受一個追不到別的女生的男生來追你喜歡的女生嗎？

this kind of shit guy keep stalking around beyond u like d gal,
WILL YOU HAPPY??

would u tink of tht guy might cheat her??
would u scare u like d gal might in luv wif tis kind of shit??
一見鐘情 my foot. my fren told me tht guy once wan woo his gf too,
jz he failed, den turned to "her"

i kept tis secret quite long alr..coz i knew she wont like i talk bad of her frens...
frens were her everytink.
tis secret i jz exposed it ytd nite. WADEVER.
she wan angry or wad...unhappy or wad...wan protect tht guy or wad..

I DUN CARE anymore.
makes me boiled more oni

老實說根本就是我自己拿來suey
沒事找事做. 那么關心人家的死活干嘛!?

it'z my life~

2009-09-20T11:32:00.000-07:00

once again...i'm bek to d life exactly like year 1 sem 1...
felt alone...haha
but how? also nid to live..
but tis time quite lonely coz felt less fren than before...

haiz~ sms someone oso wont reply...
find ppl chat oso kena ignored...
everyday tio neglected..
wht hv i done har? izit do right tinks oso wrong 1?

gals...i'm scared of them oredi
they can simply chg if they nt happy..
tht's y i looks so stupid these days..
like a puppy. no, maybe dogs...

when d owner throws d bone away,
i'll chase it..den gv it bek...
when d owner doesn't nid me,
i'm being ignored until sometimes needed me...

so..? am i going to unhappy wif it?
no...i'm still happy..coz at least d owner still nid me sometimes..
nw reali can feel wht dogs felt ...haha

sien ahhh~ alone in da house doing nth
no drama see..no frens here...no gals in phone to chat...
great difference. slp baa....haizz

ahhh...unblivable !

2009-09-04T13:41:00.000-07:00

my toothache gone! lol...
duno wtf happened...but jz less painful than ytd.. =)
i tink no nid go dentist le gua..o.O?

yeahh~~ my lifestyle chg'ed to american jor..
wake up at 5pm...sleeps at 8am...haha
keep playing...reading...slping...eating..zzz
y my life bcum like tis anyway??
but at least do like tis i can merely forget someone...

heard my classmate gt ppl bcum couple jor...
haha~ nice nice :P congrats~
hope u two can "long long long long"... (長長久久)
dun simply argue harr... -3-~

bad ache...

2009-09-03T14:31:00.000-07:00

haiz...hv a bad toothache..
tml gonna go dentist pull it out..
arrghhh~~~!! i cant even eat well T_T

hope tml gt ppl care for me baa ... =(

dissapointed...and moody..

2009-08-30T12:47:00.000-07:00

why am i dissapointed and moody?
d story begin like tis...

I felt,
wadever i done, i talked, i typed, i said..or i showed..to her
it jz like meaningless to her...
i noe..when there's no feel between a couple,
even a slight of spark can b a huge flame..
haizz...wad am i hoping of?? i knew it everytink..
it jz wont' back to d past...hw am i forget tis..?
god...tell me !! T-T

nw even dun dare to find her too much anymore...
maybe i shud find someone who cares me?
but how am i going to do it..?
look at myself..i reali hv no money n car...hw can i compete wif those car n look n money de leng zai..??

moody..coz i saw a lengzai during yamcha time...
he is LENGZAI...n oso wif a cool HAIRSTYLE...
SLIM body figure...n TALL too...NICE outfit...
COOL look...KUACI face...tht is wad i wished for !!

but he was smoking...n oso sms'ing wif a sony ericson wif a nice interface..(am i too IT?)
i saw he gt a car too...honda city.
saw a bunch of frens too...oso not bad.
tht is wad i wished for !! rich. lengzai. cars. and cool!! but nt smoking..

nw i wonder hw would i be if i'm a rich guy..
smoking? drug? or playboy..?
guys are picklish...n so were gals too.
guy will pick those gals wif fair look + normal body figure.
in contrary, gals also will pick a guy which nt so "beh kua"...
n maybe...rich? or...CAR?

reali duno...some gals said tht they jz will be attracted by "treat them gd" d guys..
is tht possible? even a fat + ugly guy? i wont bliv it...
i'm oways d stubborn 1... my mind oways d old tink.
"gals luv guys who nt so "beh kua" and maybe...cars?"

life's shud be enjoying...i'm tinking bout tht so long..
am i enjoying? my life is so worse nw... wif tis kind of mood.
there are some guys between 16~20 nw..
RICH, GOT JOB, GOT CAR. and maybe family!

y i'm 19 and a half years old nw... like tis?
POOR, NO JOB, STUDYING, NO CAR...
even after i graduated...............

.....will i happy?

awaken.

2009-08-24T12:05:00.000-07:00

i'm awake from my world...awaken from everytink tht passed by...
from jz 1 phone call, to her.
i'm ABSOLUTELY wrong ....nw i oni knew it...bt hope it wont be too late..
i'm reali sry for wht i told her ...sry for everytink...

but wht i did, i typed, i told her.
actually jz wan to express how i miss her these days..
but i made it in wrong way...so sry about tht.. can she forgive me?

i'm bad..haizz..i'm reali bad..
wht can i do har? i was born to tink too much ka?
mayb tis world reali gt pure fren between gals n guys...who noes..
by d way..i reali wanted so much to take care of her..
yet i cant...i jz can reach her by frens..wad a shame..haizz

"actions more than words".. i hope i wont say any wrong words again..
from nw on, i will take my best care of her..even she ignore me..
tis is called 自找苦吃 baa? wadever laa...
jz...走一步算一步 baa..

thanks...alotz

2009-08-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

wad can i say is jz...thanks alotz..
for those frens who keep encourage me to get back to normal...
guys...gals...all got..too much ady...cant list down all.haha..sry ya ^^"

after heard u all's comment and some jokes...
i reali felt better.. i felt tht i'm nt reali lonely and alone..
for those frens who hate her behalf of me, erm..
plz dun...
wad i can say is...everyone gt their own relationship problem..
we have no power to hate another party..am i rite?
sumore..maybe is my problem only i met tis break-up...

i noe itz oredi past...but i reali cant easily forget her
i noe she already forget me at d moment she says tht words...
maybe i shud b gals than guys? i felt tht i'm so weak.
soft-hearted gua...abit contradiction here..

i'm oways tink tht i'm d one who r the most tough 1..
who noes when it comes to relationship, i'm damn weak..
i'm hardly to scold her. even itz too over, i oso jz talk abit..
coz i noe she cant tahan ppl shout/scold her...i noe her veli well.
n i reali admit i'm a girl when i treat her...looks like 懦夫 huh? hahaa...wadever...

maybe tis is call 有愛飲水飽 gua...even she slap me i oso felt itz love..
haha ..soham d feel. itz tis called L-O-V-E? so paiseh -3-"
包容 tis is oni wad i can do for her.. but she says my attitude and thinking with her jz bo ngam key... oredi 1 year... nw says bo ngam key abit ridiculous for me...or she cannot tahan/包容 me anymore? am i childish bcoz too care every moves of hers? haizz...

after all, in tis relationship, i reali less contact wif other frens...
everytime when frens jor me out, i sure say dunwan...y?
coz i jz wan to pui her more than frens...tis is selfish gua? zzz...
even dun dare sms to other gals...scare she tink too much...haiz
but nw i realized i hv so much fren to support me even i din contact wif them...
thx a lotz..frens...

quite sad these days...coz i noe many guys wan to woo her
if she reali find 1 suits her.. i reali hope tht i can jz shut off my phone n nvr find her again...
disturbing other couples when in relationship is nt gd...
i noe tis bcoz i'm once her bf before...who will tahan if ex keep contact wif ur bf/gf?
i muz nt selfish... but on d other hand i scared she get cheated by guys...
haizz...itz a damn big contradiction oOo

d conclusion is...50% hope she will find a better man
and 50% more is...she'll come bek to me...
tht's y i wan to make myself more "handsome" and "attractive"...
ahaa..reality...i wan try it. even i noe i hv d slimmest chance.

i hate her alotz...but i love her more than tht.

itz time...to sleep!!

2009-08-17T10:33:00.000-07:00

itz time to slp actually...din rest well these days..
i tink most of our classmate all oso din slp well...some din slp oso o.O
n tml hv to draw tis draw tht ...study NC re-test...den many tinks to do..
haizz. diagram i draw...interface i draw...3-tier i do...sien
y i muz do so many tinks? i'm nt leader tis sem.

hey guys...i'm nt emo like soham laa..i emo gt factor d k?
those factor maybe u all tink itz normal...wadever
when u try it urself, u'll noe wad is SUFFER..

frenz, i oredi suffered many times jor..
it builds my mind to see through which fren reali treat u gd,
which reali wanted sumtink from u,
which reali wan to fight sumtink from u,
and which ...many lah, if i interested oni msn tell u guys.

in relationship...itz reali a complicated tink
even u're right sumtimes..it doesn't means u are right.
sometimes u'll nid to say sorry too when u're right in order to avoid arguements..
sometimes even u're in wrong, say sorry oso no use..

everytime is like tis...if other ppl done wrong n say sorry to me,
i'll forgive them in anyway...but for some guys/gals, even u said sorry..
THEY seems wont forgive u.
why is lidat 1? is tht they're unreasonable or ...? personality..?
i see through tis VERY WELL.. i can see which fren actually wil fight wif u in some circumstances...eg. GIRLS.

life suckss...but i sweared i wont so soft-hearted anymore...
just say out wad i'm tinking, wont care about others jor..

忙碌又心酸的一天...

2009-08-15T13:36:00.000-07:00

啊啊啊...今天終于完成3個assignment的任務了..
不是很辛苦只是耗了很多時間..Zzzz...
現在4.37am..一點累都沒有 haizz..
一直在想東西...就是睡不著

到底啊...男生會有多大的忍耐度？？
哪位壯士能來解答一下..? 你們的忍耐度是到哪里..?
今天知道"她" 跟別的朋友出去了...

"出去" 罷了嘛...”沒什么" 嘛...
唉女生根本都不知道我們男生的擔心是什么.
我裝作不知道算了... 祈禱沒意外發生就好...

如果她真的找到她喜歡的那我從此不會再打擾她的生活..
因為我了解 bf不會喜歡自己的gf 跟她的ex 聊天...
我一直以來都相信沒一個男生會忍得 gf跟ex 聊天...
忍得的..請來這邊報名...我倒想看看是哪位壯士...

我說的一切都是事實...不是瞎篇...
如果男生不信的話...你去交個gf...再給她跟ex聊..
u'll know what i'll feel guys. i'm sure of it.

她從來不知道我忍著...我也不罵
最多只是多講幾句...也不敢講多
因為沒人罵過她...一罵她也不知道會生氣幾天.
所以我一直包容她...haiz...但她好像不會vice versa..
不是說不想罵, 是非常想罵...但就是不忍心..
心里就想著.. "罵了會吵架, 不罵就不會吵...最多自己忍著"

說真的...女生若是不喜歡一個男生的話
就算他做100件感動她的事都不會心動的..
反而喜歡那男生的話..就算放個屁也是香的..
對不對？？

唉..我知道自己沒那機會了
也明白她不會再接受我了..
但就從此刻開始我理解了..真的了解了..

"愛"一個人不一定要每天跟她在一起.
"愛"一個人不一定要做她/他的 gf/bf.

但是...

“愛"一個人也不一定要放手. 有時放手你反而會失去機會自做net..

所以我選擇了一條...soham路
也就是對她好..而不要求回報.
很傻吧？不過只要我能看到她開心..
我真的會開心起來... 就算...是跟她new bf也好..
只要她真的開心我無所謂...

haha...am i nw reali understand wad'z love for?
or am i stupid?

"接你的車來了表示愛到站了"
"我站在十字路口對抗心痛一個人"

reali can feel it...
zzz...slp le...tired...

tired and sienz!!

2009-08-14T03:22:00.000-07:00

tis sem reali tired...i tot tis sem very easy 1..
keep play..rest...hang gai...no care no care d feel..
mana tau..last week oni noe d bau..haiz

monday re-test...flash submission..aaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhh!!!
near crazy oredi...haiz..y i take advance har?? oOo
luckily 2day network communication (NC) SBA practical test passed...
reali lucky..haha..thx ms.chok lah, keep shout at me oni i can learn..ahaa

raining nw...slpy...

tired..

2009-08-12T12:41:00.000-07:00

tired of advance...why i keep get low marks.?
i din study...of coz..
why i din study??
of coz is tht tink...haizz..maybe is jz my problem..
cant blame anyone else...

tired...tml nid test..monday nid submit assignment...and re-test...
if re-test fail...i reali dunwan study jor...
no mood...no confident jor...i'm nth now..T_T...

anyway, happie b'day to aeon, ai~ my red-haired classmate hoho

repeat...

2009-08-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

i gonna face repeat d risk tis sem...T_T
1 of my subject [CCNA 2 Network Communication]..fail mid-term ..
somemore another 1 [Digital Multimedia]..most low in class.."0" marks..

i wan die le..reali felt so stupid..>< maybe i'm nt d "ingredient" to study baa... i shud left earlier..T_T haiz, ytd d music cant upload..anyone noe how to upload it in simpler way??

ah dui...ytd search online..all method cant use..bo mood jor.. 2day get my mid-term back..oso bo mood..reali hv to face REPEAT ler.. creating flash game somemore..haiz..stress + bad mood + emo = HELL like life

headache aaa!!!!!

working...

2009-08-10T12:30:00.000-07:00

haizz~ ytd went work at cheras jusco...
felt so soham there...coz too less ppl...
sumore d booths near corner tim oOo
aikss...bad sales... but ate many tinks hahaa..
gt teppanyaki..gt fried mee...gt pattaya special..song ahh~
late nite oso gt boss treat eat at restaurant~ so nice d boss =)

went bek jor...veli tired..coz standing at thr near 10 hours..zz
facebook lu~ wait wad? nth else i can do except online...
sometimes felt quite lonely...n disappointed..y??
i'm loser in any situation...frenz...love...games...even my skills..knowledge...
oways lost and lower...so dwn confident nw..sometimes reali thought shud go bek...
sell nasi lemak oso can...haizz..

when bek from cheras..jz thought shud buy wad tinks for her..
hmmm...while walking..saw a shop sell chocolates 1
suddenly remembered she luvs chocolates...
veli 順手 den bought jor ler..
my heart jz have too much d tinks hv to tell her..
but i cant be so selfish...let her suffer to hear my tinks..
so i decided to keep it myself...rather i suffer myself than gv others burden...

傷心難過何人解? 朋友知己沒人知...
哈..i noe these kind of bai hua wen oso..izit called bai hua wen
lol duno...wadever laa..i'm banana oso..wrong oso nvm =)

received renise d designed wallpapers..aha
nice wor...can show all my feeling wif a wallpaper...

i hate to say so...but itz real...i'm reali damn SINGLE..
n nw reali jz live for my blank life...
i AM single...hahaa...abit soham d feel..

btm here is a song...jz..play for song 1..hahaa...
tis is a song jz to express my mood..combination of Canon in "C" and Eason's k song..
aiks..wan cry jor -3 -.. go slp le..

009~

2009-08-08T08:43:00.000-07:00

hahaa... watched tis soham comedy movie...quite nice XD
2day reali suey wor... wan watch harry potter dunhav...FULL o0o
den wan watch GI joe oso full...apa pun full...
at last gt tis movie...maa choose loh haha~ =)

woke up at 11.00am 2day...wakao...my classmate (yzw = yangzongwei)
reali called me tepat tepat 11am...zZzz
i put alarm at 11.30am...he called me scare i'm slping o0o
u tink i wont scared after tht liko d case mea...ah dui...
i'm a MAN of promise...haha~ although promise is made to be broken...o.O

after all...4 gays went watch at Times Square...ah dui...
so kelian for poh kian (my coursemate) waiting at d queue there so long..
hahaa~ paiseh har o.O" make u soham waiting us at there duno wan do wad...
but overall is nice laa tis movie..funnie ^o^

6pm le..wan bek jor...before tht gt buy a pair of shoes..haha
arbo tml cannot work ady...tht old shoes oredi bcum "crocodile mouth" ady..
haiz~ spend jor RM60 on tis new shoes...but nt d one i like it most..puit.
jz buy for tml's work oni... T_T nx time find ppl pui me buy tht shoes..=X

on d way bek...veli funny la haha
"yzw" slpt jor...his head keep up, down, up and down..and mouth open big big XD~
i secretly take a pic v him lol, coz too funny le =)

but quite nice laa..chat many tinks on d way...
and noe some secrets in course...haha, shhhh~
while den...we saw a fatty "drunked" jor...slpt on d floor..
d bus purposely stopped and many ppl went took pics..haha~ included me~
but i take video o.O"

soham rite? o.O" reali surprised...i tot he kena knocked by bus..

ah dui...tis video buffer so long lah

wait 20 minutes jor...shit..

wadever laa..hope monday can go watch harry potter~ XD~

who on??

haiz...

2009-08-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

2day...oso is a sad day...why everyday i hv to face a cold reply??
y dun she chg abit to me?? haiz...looks like veli noob nw..
jz a gal can let me so sad. i'm so weak..?
i reali hate her sometimes...she jz wont change abit
but...i'm asking myself...nt bcoz of she is lidat, tht's y i like her?
shit..reali is a contradiction...o0o

2day went to college...felt so sien
looks like i'm living aimlessly..quite forget jor wad i live for..
wad i live for?? i'm asking myself these days...
i noe i should live for myself... but, i jz cant forgot d past...
i'm reali a person who cant simply forget d past..
...hw can she so easily...forget? ......headache.

ytd went to college lab...ah dui, overslept tim...
let a gal waiting for me for half-an-hour...haha
not i dunwan wake up lea...liko..is tht dream too happie liaw..
wad i dreamt? haizz...use ur head oso noe...
i dreamt all i wanted in my real life... hahaa... it started like tis..

i got a CAR~ yeah, a myvi...if nt remember wrong d hua...
i'm fetchin' someone...someone tht i hate n luv...
tht's veli happie for me..it jz look like a "flashback"..
every single moment flashes back...reali happie tht times.
SIGH, while typing tis..it reminds me again...ah dui...

quite sry for liko...haha...veli soham d waiting for me
SORRY laaa~ liko-xiao mei...saw it le bo? o.O

jz nw went out supper...asked her izit wan to come out for a drink..
she accepted, i tot she wanted to eat so much...
who noes, she said actually she wan to slp...haiz
FORCED...tht's y i'm nt so happy...
veli hate her actually...duno hw to take care herself.
gastric still dunwan eat...got see such a xxxxxx ppl ?? ah dui.

luv n hate...reali jz a second..

realistic or...think too much?

2009-08-06T08:59:00.000-07:00

last 2 blogs...izit realistic or i tink too much?
there's no answer for tis...coz gals say tis, and boys say tht...
who's d right 1? bcoz or materialistic, gal will choose them?
or, boys are reality...keep find d prettiest 1..?

wad i can say is...we guys wont find most pretty 1...
although pretty is attractive, but u gals tink we wont scare mea?
we oso nid to worry whenever u gals go out, wet de mahh..
in my opinion laa..i reali choose a gal wif normal-look, no nid so pretty..[n nt so cham]
and damn luv me...tht's it

my frens in msn keep telling me...
goh aa...xiao hao aa...dun so EMO laa...
hey, i reali dunwan be so EMO de ok? u all tink i wan d mea...
after break-up, itz so hard for me to put it down...
some said i put too much feeling n effort in tis relationship..
YES, i am...i admit i did put much effort...i reali put whole-heartedly...
tht's y i've 2day...damn sad.. =(

n i discovered something...tht is, i can feel it SHE hv her own guy alr...
i tink is jz 好感 maybe... and i straight-away might tink tht guy sure hv car...
duno y...tink too much? haizz...reali no car veli sienn...
even wan to eat somewhere wont too smoky oso cant..

jz nw dinner also ate alone..i hv, i hv sms'ed her izit can pui me eat...
but she say dunwan oso..d reason is "lazy"..
yeah, excuses...i like it.. itz oredi 2 weeks ++ i receive many msgs like
"yes" "no" "dunwan" "lazy" "busy" worse...no reply...
can a person reali can forget past easily?? omg...so cruel to me...=(

i wan to say...

2009-08-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

after writing d blog jz nw, many frens told me..
"ah dui...u cannot say we gals lidat.." "ey, not all gals lidat k?"..

HEY, wad i wan to shout out is...
I felt uneasy when an unknown guy fetch u gals away...u get wad i mean?
even got fren, but still an unknown guy tht i nvr met before fetch...i'll still feel uneasy..
for guys who duno d feel 1...fine..
den when ur gf or like d gals going out v frens + a unknown guy drives = feel it urself...

wahahaha

2009-08-05T08:17:00.000-07:00

2day our class went crazy...coz nid singing in d class in order to pass in music subject...
wahahaa~ reali scare loh, coz last class d student keep asking n arguing d marks...
walao, like fighting tim..reali wan to tell them..."eh, u guys play i wan hear.."
see whether they deserve 2 get marks bo...o.O

aiks...reali "慚愧" ah..coz our lecturer reali hope we can do better..
nid enuff time to practice and rehearsal..but i jz spend 1 night =(
after all, all PASSED ady~ hahaa...but gt ppl cry wor...
bcoz too paiseh ady zzz...our lecturer oso felt wan cry..haha
so "尷尬" d situation... i tot it will go veli funny...who noes... =(

but our class reali gt ppl can sing 1... gt aeon jusco...err liko-xiao mei...ah chuah...tht porcupine jian xin..n oso tht 1 crying de, hahaa~ =P
haizz...felt like sohai when singing..jz dunhav tht talent..
how to improve har? or my life jz can face PC and work and die as a normal man? T_T?

reali sad sumtimes...cant face reality...
reality is... gal oni like those "money+look+car+treat u gd"...
lets say, a guy with no car, money, look, but treat u gd...
and a guy wif money, car, look and treat u gd...

which 1 u gals will choose? OF COURSE is d 1 wif car and treat u gd maa...
world is reality...reality is cruel...cruel is shit o0o
tht's y i reali 自卑 sometimes...wif no car..no money..no look...oni can treat HER gd saja..
WHY am i poor?? siennn...even wan eat at wangsa oso nid borrow frens motor but nt CAR..
even fetch her oso nid care accident...WHY am i so poor ?? haiz...

when i heard she went out wif her frens n wif a GUY who drives...
my heart reali tak boleh tahan... i cant stand d person i like went out wif guy's car..
coz i hv no car...n no money too... GALS jz wont understand how hurt we are...
when a bf doesn't hv car, when gf went out wif another frens got car... i mean guys la...who drives 1..

WILL YOU GUY FELT 自尊心受損??
haizz...i duno is i tink too much or wad..i'm jz lidat...
felt lower standard compared wif the guys who drives...
who can giv me answers?? WHY ?? ....=(

PC Fair~

2009-08-04T09:49:00.000-07:00

hahaa...these bunch of ppl har...veli geng 1

keep shout shout shout..."streamyx promotion~ free wi-fi modem~~"

i oredi biasa wif tis 口號 jor...XD

really happy when working tis time...although oni work 1 day...

met tis gal, n tht gal...haha..

left 1 called "eeeng" hahaa...weird rite? tht's her name reali..lol

right hand side tht 1 name abit looks like korean ler...GENG

these 2 shout non-stop for 12 hours...proud of them o.O"

Reali happie this PC fair...but i din call any frens to join...WHY?

omg...i reali scare when i jor 1 fren go...den lost 1 fren loh...

some frens keep asking me.."y dunwan jor us go work?"

i say..." i scared ady.." aiks...

After all...tis work came bcoz of 2 factor...

1 of them is my fren...n other 1 is my HER...swt

i reali hope can use tht salary to make HER happie..

but stil ok laa...still hv a little contact v her even she dunlike reply me..

Just nw went to wangsa eat dinner wif my sister....old wen

hahaa.. quite long time din c her oredi

but still, i still tinking of HER too...straightaway sms her izit ate le bo..

stupid hor? haha....nvm..i'm stupid oways...

很高興地~

2009-07-31T11:40:00.000-07:00

再一次的...慢慢的...接近了她

唉, 她就是這樣, 永遠都要人操心

你叫我怎么放心?? 連自己的身體都不顧好...

看到她臉色真的很差, 就知道完全沒休息...

可能最近的活動弄到她沒時間吧...

結果下定決心了, 煮一小頓慢慢補回她...

但她不知道, 其實這一小頓一小頓的飯菜...

.........其實就是在她生日當天準備的...

我都沒丟...有丟也是丟冰箱吧..

有些壞了的確是丟了...怕吃壞肚子..也不想替她冒這個險...

當拿便當給她的時候...

感覺上又從新的回到了1年前的我們.

哈哈...時光倒流..這是我跟天求來的嗎??

真是謝謝啊...看到她一臉好奇我帶來的便當

心情真是好過...哈哈..

因為每次的便當, 都是不同的食物不同的配料...

從以前到現在, 都是我自己調味的特別食物...

有些還是第一次下廚的呢..

之前也是..有個雞肉怎么處理都處理不好...

結果她說了 : "再加油, 煮飯婆...下次一定更好吃的"...

結果我真的下了功夫..煮出一道有媽媽味道的~

蘑菇雞~ wahaha... 還加了一大堆雜七雜八的東西..

換來的一句... : "比較入味咯." 是多么開心啊~

就算真的是緣分到了..就讓我繼續這樣服侍她吧...

真的除了她以外從來沒人批評我的料理到那么差...

讓我不斷的進步才會有今天什么都會煮的我 xixi~

不錯開心啦哈哈~ 今天果然覺得活著是美好的~

是我想多了嗎？還是擔心？

2009-07-30T05:11:00.000-07:00

每天都會擔心她吃了沒...

也會想知道她去了哪里...跟了誰...

是我想多了嗎？

昨天只知道她沒吃東西...心里就覺得是不是該找她出來吃..

結果又被拒絕了..哈哈...

結果還是一個人在印度檔吃...唉

很想跟之前所謂的"兄弟" 吃

現在呢？關系差得不得了...連談話的勇敢都沒了..

一人..就一人吧反正我來這的時候也是一個人的...

剛剛晚餐..跟hometown的朋友吃..

聽說他那邊有間空房, 雖然很貴...但是至少沒人討厭我吧..?

在考慮到底我該怎么辦...haiz

心情好差啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~

隱形的一天...

2009-07-28T01:55:00.000-07:00

今天很不可思議的...在學院遇到了她3次..
但也很傷心的...被當隱形人3次...
我知道她看到我...我想, 她也知道我在看著她..
但她一點也不想看我的樣子...
極度不爽我的感覺...

唉, 我到底做了什么東西...怎么那么多人討厭我啊?
真希望能夠時光倒流...
以前的日子真的是很幸福..
真的是失去了才知道珍惜...可惜太晚了...
她太討厭我了...

很想sms她...但每次都沒回信
我該怎么辦好? 難道真的要忘記她嗎?
她真的可以那么快忘記我嗎?

這讓我感覺到...以前的日子都是場夢...
天啊...我不想這樣就醒來啊...
就讓我一直睡下去更好...不想每天起來都淚汪汪的...

伯樂

2009-07-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

愛你的那一個傷你的那一個

誰才是你愛情的......伯樂？

這首歌到現在我才喜歡聽 -.-

可能里面的歌詞真的太動人了...好像根本再說我 zz

今天...又再次忍不住sms給她了

每次吃飯之前..都會擔心她有沒有在吃

可能這1年來我都沒停止的擔心過她吧..

總是要等她一起吃...或知道她吃飽了就自己再找吃..

結果還是沒回信...還打了通電話過去...

吵醒了她...真的有點覺得不好意思多管閑事..

唉, 要我不管還真難啊...

每吃飯都會先想到她...我幾時才會忘記nea?

最可怕的一天 ...還是來到了

2009-07-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

可怕...為什么呢？情侶之間一定會等到今天...那就是 break..

這字眼真的讓我很不舒服... 可能是第一次吧...

第一次那么認真放下所有感情下去...才會傷的那么深吧

她...已經跟我說了很多次

只是我一直執著...不想那么快就斷了這個關系..

但始終還是分了, 變冷淡了尷尬了安靜了.

一直問著自己...是不是哪方面做錯？

朋友也這樣...愛人也這樣... 難道我這個人真的那么相處？

不過也真難得啊...隔了那么多年都沒哭過

真是第一次哭那么多次啊~~ 說出來還真拍寫...

一個大男人哭什么哭？唉...有時覺得自己跟小孩子沒兩樣..

分了過后...時常還是會sms她

不過幾乎都不會回的...也許我真的太討人厭了..

今天...是她的生日

也是我的畢業典禮日...

應該是最高興的一天吧？但是今天是我最難過的一天...

本來打算慶祝她的生日的...

已經準備了一頓晚餐...可是她一點也不想吃..

怎辦？丟了吧...反正我也不能吃咳嗽咳到很厲害一下..zzz

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是...我的確很愛她

可是...情侶之間應該互相的吧？

我怎么能那么自私...不愛我了還纏著人家...

還是慢慢放下吧...

這幾天真的是很辛苦..

連覺也睡不好...兄弟之間發生摩擦...

又分手...又生病...真的是半死不活的

一點事情都辦不好...也沒心情讀書...

電話中的媽媽跟我說...

“小弟，這只是你人生必經之路...

你才剛剛踏出第一步呢，還有很遠的路...”

不是我想跟我家人說...是真的沒人可以聽我說了..

想說別給他們擔心我...忍著忍著再也忍不住了...

跟媽媽通話完后...心里真的比較舒服多了

至少在我最需要關心的時候關心我...

她...也得到她想要的自由了..

這也算是一種快樂吧...

雖然以前跟她在一起的時光真的很快樂

真的很溫馨真的很幸福..

我也會牢牢記住我跟她的過去..

不是1+1那么簡單就能忘記的...我真的想忘也忘不了

我承認我還是很愛她...

也承認我還是很想念她...

每一分鐘都想傳簡訊給她但是又怕得不到reply..

也不想讓她更討厭我...

雖然真的很想再一次跟她繼續走下去...

我看..應該很難吧...

藥效來了...頭暈了...明天還要考試

真是種折磨啊...三不五時都有想哭的感覺..

怎么辦呢?? 也只好看看手機里跟她的回憶吧...

希望她真的可以幸福快樂...沒有我的日子她一樣可以過的很好...

也不知該打什么了...只知道自己真的太想念她了...

讀書吧...豪...

.........

2009-07-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

生病了...很痛苦

但怎么也比不上我的痛苦..

剛剛一人走上去買藥...

一步一步走著都花了10分鐘..

一直回想以前...我真的那么念舊嗎？

心里一直有想哭的感覺...但哭不出來...haiz...

我決定了.

2009-07-22T04:37:00.000-07:00

我不讀了.

這種日子對我而言...太過過份了

想要關心時只有墻壁,枕頭,還有被...

電話也沒響幾次...1天有1次就好偷笑了.

在我最需要人陪伴時

沒人.

我在做什么...

2009-07-21T18:47:00.000-07:00

我到底做了什么得罪上天啊...

為什么要這樣處罰我？

對，也不是...

不對，更不是...

友情愛情一場空...這是我唯一得到的東西...

對人家好未必是件好事..

不對人家好肯定不是件好事...

唉..誰來教教我？誰叫救救我？哭笑不得...

有個朋友說 “百忍成金”

你要我忍到什么時候...? 是不是等大家都離開我了...

....才算成金？

會得到...果然有機會得失..

相反的, 幾時得失了...才會得到？

也許我注定一世人就是這樣吧...

去了一件來了兩件...下次會是來四件嗎？

我很累...沒想到當人也那么累..

很無言...因為得到的答案真的讓我很無言...

抱著希望過每一天...這感覺可真難受啊.

i found tht...

2009-07-05T03:28:00.000-07:00

i'm reali big mouth

wahahaa...keep telling others some secrets when they ask me...
coz i reali hate those ppl who make me puke...
hope tht those secrets wont spread baa >3<~

發現....i found sumtink...

2009-07-05T03:22:00.001-07:00

發現....i found sumtink...

2009-07-05T03:22:00.000-07:00

難道我不想嗎？

2009-06-27T21:13:00.000-07:00

u says...u're sad....

u says..u're dissappointed after read it..

u says...nvr see such a guy like me...

i hear..wad u say..

i hear wad u told me...

i jz hear...

......am i nt enuf sad?

i hope i can back to tht day...

i reali "hoped" i can hug u n ask u nt to go...

人生最低潮期....

2009-06-23T08:44:00.000-07:00

今天可說是哭笑不得啊... 我又變回單身了。

可笑還是要哭好？

承認自己的沒用...還覺得自己很厲害醬...

太失敗了..

今天是第一次收過那么多字，那么多話的內容...

從來都沒覺得自己是那么失敗過..

看著"她" 收拾所有的東西，離開了我..

我卻一句話，都說不出口..

是開不了口..竟然"她"已經做了決定...

我也不想再弄到她不高興..

豪啊...你很失敗喔

從來沒見過你那么失敗過...

說的話也該說完了...要分,也分了...

6月23日 11點46分

真希望這時間能倒退回去..

希望"她"會找到更好的吧...

奇怪? 肚子覺得空空但是完全不餓...

今天根本沒吃到東西耶..

搞什么? 頭一次感覺到那么空虛...

算了,不管了...

blog真是個好發泄的地方...可惜..沒那mood了...

我就是 "我"

2009-05-22T01:38:00.000-07:00

singapore~ wad a nice trip country..
my bro and I went to Bugis Junction...lol
damn cheap d tinks...if u really works in sg

An advice from my bro..itz dun convert d SG dollar to RM ringgit..
or else, u'll will find it exp..but, somehow some grocery actually cheaper than msia's..
Their food n delicacies...DAMN DELICIOUS ! o0o
unblivable singapore's food..

Hope after tis study year pass all.. n get my degree/adv..
Heard from my cousin's.. A normal diploma student will get their jobs salary around..SG 1200.00 per mth.. lol
Diploma actually itz jz a rot paper.. No use at all..
For degree student, near SG 1600.00 ~ 1800.00 for 1st mth..( hvn't + allowance n bonus)

1 of my relatives works there with Bachelor in Degree (IT)..
works 5 mth oredi SG 3000.00++ -_-""
After a chat wif him, he said after i graduate for degree..oso can join him..lol
but my programming so lousy T_T.. duno can take d job bo..
wadever lah~ waiting graduation for my diploma... 26th !! i'm waiting !! o0o

but mostly...is to survive..
Living in M'sia is such a TORTURE...zZ
walk oso scare kena "da kip"..zZ robbery
nw still nid bkful of H1N1..zZ
nid 5 mths more to hv injection...o0o wad an evolution of SARS

itz TIME

2009-05-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

itz time ... wad i wait d, finally, itz coming...
1st is d graduation day.. i hope i can pass it, n proceed to d ADV..hoho
hope no fail lah~ o.O 1 sub oso cannot pass i can go jump sea ady

2nd is... wahahahaaa~ finally, i can live in peace n happie..
whole house happie nw..so merrier and happier than before..
all housmates nw says "pheww...finally"
waiting to install d air-cond...den everytink will be perfect XD~

3rd~ my cooking utensils!~~ yeahh finally can cook in PEACE..

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holiday nw...duno wan do wht..sien~
many frens told me, they finish their time ended up by slping...lol
me too...for nw

but, i'm veli happie for nw...
i'm poor, but still can hv wonderful feast...
i'm stupid, but still manage to study...
i'm ugly, but still hv a nice gf..
i'm lonely, but at least i hv some true-hearted nice fren..

wad am i asking for? its oredi fulfill and warms my heart ady..
for other frens who are having problems in love matters, GOOD LUCK TO YOU
as someone told me before.. i remember it always..

happie holiday to all of my frens! ^o^
lets slp 2gether till d end of d month :P

麻木~ 已變成個習慣

2009-04-04T12:09:00.000-07:00

真為一些付出過的"腳"感到傷心。
每次都說別人...我看我應該檢討自己別學習..
看就好..爸爸說 : "又不是靠他養你，管人家醬多做么..."
我看..就繼續當 "旁觀者" 好了~
人家要怎么說我就說吧~ 我自己不覺得是就行了

= ="" 慘 assignment好難...需要求助了
最好是順順利利的過關...不然回家吃老米

欺騙自己讓腦筋麻痹

2009-03-26T04:54:00.000-07:00

everyday watching same faces and behaviours'...
and all tinks tht arounds me
day by day, it became a routine habit oredi...

Tagged by Vivien~

2009-03-04T07:54:00.000-08:00

Aiks...so long baru c ur tagged...sry ahh vivien @.@
no mood on PC n c blog these days~

幸福點點名遊戲規則
回答下列問題，並貼到自己的網誌or報台
寫完後自己多加一個問題
然後傳給十個人，可以點被點過的人
被你點到的人你要去跟他說，我點到你了
寫完後去跟點到你的人說「我寫完了」
不可以不寫喔，不然幸福會跑掉喔

1.我的大名: 豪 (Xiao Hao)
2.我的生日: 10月12日89年
3.誰傳給你的: Vivien (d black spec gal)
4.說出五個好朋友: Chee Hong, Jun Wei, Jia Hao (Top One), Xi Peng, 還有一些college的朋友
5.生日想要得到什麼: 一臺鋼琴外送pizza 2片

6.近期開心的是: 和女友一起渡過一起享用美食
7.近期壓力的是：朋友之間的問題
8.未來想做什麼阿: 想做個有工錢有時間玩的老伯伯...
9.有沒有喜歡的人: 有，笨珠珠..
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎: 想啊...沒人舉辦

11.跟誰出去最幸福: 女朋友及一班真心朋友
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了: 管他們...吵架是因為不信任或自私犧牲別人...(我看多了)
13.跟情人出去最想去哪: 舞臺上一起玩琴
14.聖誕節想要做啥: 上云頂跟女友就好~
15.最想要跟誰過聖誕節: 女友以及一些真心朋友 (不是不管老爸老媽，是他們有自己的世界了 :) )

16.有沒有起床氣: 沒有，除非潑我水
17.有幾個兄弟姊妹: 一个哥哥
18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的): 傳說（劉力揚）
19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的): Jason Mraz 的 I'm yours
20.喜歡什麼顏色: 藍，粉紅，白

21.上廁所會不會先沖水: 會
22.愛不愛我: 當然，還很喜歡涅...(自戀)
23.喜歡男生還是女生: 女生...
24.頭髮有幾根: > 1
25.吃跟睡哪個重要: 吃

26.初吻在何時: 被我叔叔的狗親了...T_T
27.身高多高: 173cm
28.遇到好兄弟(飄飄)妳跟他說的第一句是: 幫我宰了那些沒用的朋友
29.有沒有一見鍾情的經驗: 簡直沒試過
30.有沒有性幻想的對象: 大把叻~

31.跟被你點名的人說一句話: 可不可以..請我吃壽司 @@?
32.跟你最好的北鼻說句話: 一起繼續走下去...
33.最愛哪個節目: Astro 的記錄片
34.你會重色輕友嗎: 會~ 因為每次都被人重色輕友現在要我先出手了
35.喜歡怎樣穿著的女生：睡覺衣長長大大件

36.最愛北鼻做什麼事時最認真: 對著我傻笑...
38.你報台帳號多少: 看不懂 = =!
39.平常假日最喜歡做什麼休閒活動: 上网,听歌,看戏, 做...那個咯 (大便啦)
40.一天上幾次廁所: 2次左右

41.最想大聲說什麼: 啊!! 這世界好殘酷好現實啊!!
42.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所: 笑咩，難道小在褲子？
43.上廁所會不會脫褲褲: 開拉鏈就好
44.我是誰: 我是個替死鬼
45.誰很欠打: 讓我變替死鬼的sui 人

46.現在很迷什麼: 迷那個那個啦...
47.睡相很差: 絕對沒有別人還說我像冬眠 = =川
48.現在的時間: 半夜12 : 09
49.是否痛恨傳點卷給你的人: tips 嗎？不會wor...
50.體重多少: 55kg

51.今天天氣: 陰天
52.你懷孕了嗎: 懷了一肚子黑色巧克力色長長的東西
53.你重樂透最想做什麼: 吃啊喝啊
54.你覺得女生會化妝重要嗎: 重要~ 女友就是要漂亮的難道擺在家里發霉？
55.男生跟女生到底有沒有純友誼: 等99

56.愛情的定義應該是什麼: 信任
57.人類是不是愚蠢的生物: 肯定是
58.如果有人要跟你一夜情: 除非我沒女友...還要看那個對象是否合我胃口 @.@
59.跟你的前女/男友說一句話: 之前我們還小...對不起我也不必說道歉...還小嘛
60.晚上睡覺會不會夢到你曾最愛的她/他: 不會wor..沒feel了

61.你有個很愛的人你該如何開口跟她/他複合: 敢敢chiong~
62.如果明天就世界末日你會: 抱著珠珠過1整天吃喝玩樂殺了那些沒用的朋友
63.如果距離很遠的朋友要如何聯絡: sms就好
64:現在是否幸福: 絕對比別人幸福~
65:另一半劈腿你還會原諒她嗎: 劈腿的對象 100%要比我好不然我o0o

66.你/妳會選擇一個愛你的人或你/妳愛的人: 雙方面都要
67.你依然相信有真愛的存在嗎: 當然~
68.最爱的饮料: Teh-O Ais Kao + kurang manis
69.最怀念的时刻: 第一次彈出讓人覺得好聽的歌
70.最想做的: 找份工作賺錢結婚移民

被点名者：
沒幾個wor~ 想回的不就跟我說咯 @@ 自動點

(1)被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
(2)請老實的回答每一個問題。
(3)不行擅自塗改題目。

No, u are wrong Yes, you are wrong WTF?

2009-02-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

So? am i going to make it wrong even it is right?
even i am right, am i going to make it wrong?

thx vivien...after tht chat, i felt better TOO much
i can feel wad u trying to tell me,
THX a lotz... yes, i still hv someone tht 100% trust me, itz more than enough.

A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new.

Itz been a long time i din "emo" =(

最美好的回憶

i luvb tis~~~~

笑素偶~~~ xD

tired / 3 \

不錯的一部戲 =)

問自己...後悔嗎？

這...是誰的部落格啊？ O_o?

除了sien 還是 sienz~~~

sien sien day~

還未到達時 請剎車

deep inside..who noes?

funny monopoly =3

exercise day

fun life, life's fun

wad do i reali want?

tiring day...y?

lousy moral class...

KL 1st two days...

回到KL的日子.

END of holidays...

non-stop stories around me~

又是chiong k....but i love it :)

你不是真正的快樂

continued.

看到了同班的blog...有點小同意的咯~

我只是個小角色...i'm jz a small character..

sozai performance..

Interesting LIFE ever in KL...

PASSED.

happy and sad 20th birthday

it'z my life~

ahhh...unblivable !

bad ache...

dissapointed...and moody..

awaken.

thanks...alotz

itz time...to sleep!!

忙碌又心酸的一天...

tired and sienz!!

tired..

repeat...

working...

009~

haiz...

realistic or...think too much?

i wan to say...

wahahaha

PC Fair~

很高興地~

是我想多了嗎？還是擔心？

隱形的一天...

伯樂

最可怕的一天 ...還是來到了

.........

我決定了.

我在做什么...

i found tht...

發現....i found sumtink...

發現....i found sumtink...

難道我不想嗎？

人生最低潮期....

我就是 "我"

itz TIME

麻木~ 已變成個習慣

欺騙自己 讓腦筋麻痹

Tagged by Vivien~

No, u are wrong Yes, you are wrong WTF?

還未到達時請剎車

欺騙自己讓腦筋麻痹